A day with mixed emotions of joy and melancholy , Sunday.
An early morning in the temple . Did prayers , offered you food & burnt you a big bag of clothes and your favourite , handphone. Everytime i hold on to the joss sticks , it was a reality slap for me to be reminded you are gone . I hate how i have to use the joss sticks to show how much i respect , miss & love you dearly. I fought with my tears in the temple , my ego was too proud . I did'nt want to cry in front of Bryan again . I dont want him to start embracing me in his arms and i'll start bawling my eyes out again . No comfort words can take away the pain of having to watch him go .
21 days since you left us . How i wish i could turn back the clock now that days pass so fast .
You are my everything . The epitome of a good husband , good father & the best grandfather i can ever ask for . You loved this family so much , you did everything you could for us without a word of complain . Even the week before you left us , you changed our door lock and water tap because you knew nobody else knows how to do that other than you . God was then again , fair to you . He took you away without pain or suffering . I'm so thankful for that . But watching you leave us within a short 18 hours was traumatizing . Till that very last moment , you held my fingers tightly was the last ever memory you gave me . In our next lives , i'll definitely still want to be your grand daughter . This time , i promise i'll make you proud .
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